I have learned and grown so much throughout this project.

There were so many things I discovered about God and sex, but

most of all, myself. First, I learned that I can do the hard things

and the things that I just don’t want to do. One of the main areas

I struggled with most on the project was the writing. Even though

it is not necessarily difficult, I do not enjoy it. So every time I found

myself completing a bubble, I would wait as long as possible to

write it up. However, I failed to think about the future: when it

came time to write things up, I had forgotten so much, and there

were so many to get through at once. In life, there will always be

something that I will have to do that I really don’t want to, and I

will try to find other tasks or excuses to avoid it. However, at some

point, I have to push through my discomfort to finish the task at

hand well.

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Another learning stretch was trying to manage everything that I took on this year. This year, I had so much on my plate, and whenever I wasn’t diligent about planning and remaining organized, I fell behind. These things drained my emotional capacity as well as my time. I quickly learned that when I do not allow the Lord to pour back into me by spending time with Him, I burn out and cannot operate at my best capacity. My crazy schedule also forced me to pay more attention to my social life. There were times when I had to say no to activities because they wouldn't be wise ways to spend my time. However, there were times when I had to force myself to take a break and spend time with my friends and family to recharge. This is another way the Lord poured into me. Whenever I was just going, I was drained emotionally and physically, but when you allow those you love to fill you up with joy, you receive the strength to go on.

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My final learning stretch has been self-reflection. This project also forced me to look at myself and my past in a way that I had never done before. Prior to this year, I had largely ignored, suppressed, and denied everything I had done and experienced, and the fruits of it. However, I could not avoid it at all this year. This project brought back so many things I had forgotten or blocked out. I had to face the things I had been hiding for so many years. I had to question what I believe and why, and examine how the past affects me now. This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do or experience, and I am still walking through it now. However, I believe God has something good for me; none of this happened by accident. I know He will use my story and this project for His own glory, so it was well worth it.